Quote Originally Posted by 408Mike View Post
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So, today he's a genius again? Which of your personalities is coming out to play today?
Technically I have always asserted only one thing about Scooter- He is a super-genius, and where he is at mentally is the fringe between genius and insanity. It can seem one way or the other if you do not know him, but those of us that do know it is 100% sanity.

He's got the upper hand on me as does sonatine, details being boring essentially they both have my trust and basically I overreact to most things they do that seem negative. You tell me I can't cook tacos I say fuck it, go eat something else, and fuck you for saying anything at all but they need hot sauce, scooter or tine says the same thing I'll probably overreact slam the spatula down on the counter top grab the oil and chuck it against a wall screaming about how someone is always trying to make me crack and blah blah.

BPD- learn to love it, that's what I am trying to do. I haven't learned how to control my mania and thus have zero control over slipping into a slightly dissociated state and acting poorly, then regretting it after etc etc. I am not happy about it, but also have no answers. The more I am attacked and feel threatened the further and faster I dissociate until I am not me at all, and won't remember what happened. if you wonder where my stamina and patience comes from to fight and fight with whomever about whatever sometimes, like I enjoy it or something, that would be my shell, a projected Self sent to do what needs to be done to keep the inner Self protected.

Hey that sounds just weird enough that I don't want to talk about it anymore. Let's concentrate on crucial matters at hand-I haven't touched a cigarette nor had the slightest urge, even around people smoking them, in like 6 days. This nicotine gum is absolutely the best aid to quit I have ever tried. Anyone smoking owes it to themselves and family/friends to give the 4mg gum a shot, it's nothing special and I feel nothing, and that's just the beauty of it, that I feel nothing. No cravings, no foggy headedness, no grouchiness and bad temper. Awesome.
It's almost as if you can now change personality from paragraph to paragraph. No idea what any of that means. I saw the word "taco", "nicotine", and "crack". I'm sure it makes perfect sense to you.