I literally could not take it anymore and the addiction. Switching to MS Contin wasn't the best solution I still felt the need to not live off my script and was buying oxy 30s aka blues off the street. After soul searching and a long look in the mirror I could see in my eyes I had no soul anymore. I have pissed through atleast 10 grand this year buying opiates off the street because my script from my doctor wasn't enough. Thursday morning I flushed what I had left down the toilet.

I am going after it cold turkey. I am currently 86 hours sober and it feels like I have been hit by a car again.

Every muscle, joint and bones ache, I have diarrhea, I have a serious runny nose, one minute i am burning up the next minute i have serious chills, and I can barley sleep.

I am also in immense pain due to my hip and back injury from the accident.

I wouldn't wish this on anyone but i am done with the opiates. I'd rather live my life in immense pain then to stay hooked on this stuff. I became a fucking pill craving, no soul zombie.

I WILL BEAT THIS SHIT!!!!