Had a stroke in July due to blood pressure

[cmoney]

I drank 10-15 a day regularly. I say "drank" but I am only on day 3 of not drinking so long ways to go.

However, 1 is never less than 6 percent for a beer. For example, I would drink a "Golden Monkey" six pack and count it as six beers even though it is around 10 percent per beer.

In the last 10 years, i never blacked out and rarely got drunk (maybe 1-2 times a year). So, i dont drink to get drink. I drink to get a steady buzz.

Peter's posts got to me and I took a step back and realized that the only reason i really have not suffered because of my drinking is because when the work load gets rough (because of hangovers or non motivation) is because i have the ability to delegate. I have gotten so good at delegation because of my drinking that i could probably go to prison for a year and only need to write one email a week and still do well financially.

With that said, the booze has started to compete with my energy and overall zest for life. I also am more anxious than before and that is almost for sure because of booze.

So who knows. I am day 3 and feel like shit but i am going to get to the two week mark if it kills me. Once i hit two weeks I will see how it all feels and take it from there. As shitty as i do feel my brain already feels as if it can process information easier. As if part of it had been in a constant semi sleep state and now just kind of coming out of hibernation.

The sugar craving thing is a trip though. The feeling is as if you need water but the water to quench the thirst is sugar. So bizarre.

Doctor friend coming over tonight to check vitals and bring me fluids and some other stuff in a banana bag. He seems to think the third night will be the worst so will see . Right now I feel shitty but no worse than third day of quitting smoking.

Cmoney I am glad you have woken up and seen the light, especially with that consumption level. Lifestyle changes now with you still being relatively young can reverse any damage pretty easily.

Big change from not that log ago, but a good one indeed.

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Thanks,

On day four now. Doctor came over last night gave me Ativan if needed. He thinks the worst is already behind me given my vitals and answers to a bunch of questions. Already seen a drop in blood pressure from 135/80 to 100/65 from first day of quitting. He basically said I got off lucky given the amount of drinking i have done and for the period of time (15 solid years).

He said there is still a chance of seizures but would be very unlikely at this point. Biggest issue is going to be cravings and jesus christ i cant stop thinking about sugar.

Feel better than yesterday and brain seems to coming more and more out of hibernation.

Going to ride this until two week mark and then see how it goes. I am not gong to lie . Even if I feel amazing after two weeks, it is going to be extremely hard not to drink again. This is simply because it is part of so many things i do and so many of the people i deal with. I cant imagine going to a football game, vegas etc and not drinking. The issue is that I cant control it once i get going so I either need to quit or I go back to the spot i was 4 days ago.