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Just a point of reference. I finished 7th in my class in High School and most students who had as many absences as I did are typically on the bottom of the class. I was also voted most likely to succeed. So I wasn’t diagnosed until many years later. I was good at hiding what I was going through.

Anyways Happy Thanksgiving everyone. This stuff obviously hits close to home for me. But I repect everyone’s opinion. Psychiatry is an extremely inexact science. Why in civil/criminal cases they can find experts who are basically 180 degrees apart from eachother with their diagnosis.

I will just say why the abuse was never caught even though it happened for a few years regularly. I have looked this up and haven’t found similar cases. The person was an adult and would put their entire body weight on me. Would use one had to cover my mouth and the other hold my nose. Would cut off air to me until I turned purple and/or temporarily lost consciousness. They were then nice enough for me to get a some air so I wouldn’t die and then would repeat the process. This method left no marks or bruises. Haven’t found a case like it.

I think the routine lack of oxygen getting to my brain was probably what caused my body chemistry to change and the subsequent bipolar to manifest but I’ll never no for sure. I don’t think it was the trauma. I think it was just what the abuse did to my body’s development.
That is a very odd case. I had some weird shit too that has been hard to find many others with similar histories, its difficult not finding people to understand.

Not sure if you are familiar with genetics and phenotypic plasticity, but all sorts of outside stuff happening influences the expression of our genetics in differing ways, trauma during childhood is incredibly destructive, even things that don't normally fall under legal abuse, I think these are referred to as ACE's (adverse childhood events).

Basically I don't think it was lack of oxygen, i think it was the trauma that mostly impacted your development.
High # ACEs pretty much dictates adulthood if not dealt with via therapy/meds, at least for Americans.

'Crazy' females almost 100% sex abused, sadly it's like 1 in 5 before age 8 and probably underreported.