2023 was probably the hardest year of my life
Not only did I have another kid (15th), but I faced endless obstacles
The year started at my new house, the first one I ever bought, I moved in before the new year though
Everything was going pretty decent for me for the first few months, around the start of spring I got hit with a $4 million lawsuit
I still remember when I found out about it, I was checking my email before putting one of my 15 kids to bed
I felt like I was going to die, cry, have my heart explode
How could I pretend everything was ok?
Somehow I figured it out and was able to do story time with a smile on my face
I raced back to my office to call my lawyer it was bed
I spent the rest of the weekend pacing in circles around the perimeter of my property wondering if I should cash in assets and move to another country Bryant Micon style
The next months of my life were spent endlessly working to adapt our business model to avoid further legal exposure
Along the way and within weeks we got smacked with 3 more semi related cases
Nothing I did or could control but in business sometimes this doesn’t matter
Basically as soon as this happened I decided I wanted to just get though this losing as litttle money as possible then do something else with my life
This started what was basically a 6 month outburst where I was always mad, sad, violent and depressed all at the same time
I just felt awful, I felt like my world was caving in, I really couldn’t stand the pressure
I just wished I had somebody to talk to, maybe somebody to relate to, was there even one person ? There wasn’t
I thought the business changes I made would have a hugely negative impact but business just switched over to other things naturally and by the end of the year we had made a significant amount more profit than 2022
But my personal life was in shambles
I didn’t want to speak to or be around anyone
I wanted to work all day then do drugs alone in my office at night while gambling and losing on sports games, please not losing is very important, I only got THE THRILL when I lost
All of my personal relationships went to shit which is where they were anyways
Everything was basically miserable, I was making a lot of money each month but didn’t care
I was in a race to cash out
Anyways moving along, as I noted on here I started to build a personal business brand online and that had gone very well for me. It could be going a lot better but it’s a side focus at this point. In 2024 I’ll put more time into doing audio and video content, which my fans love
Toward the end of the year, I went up north and rented a farm, it went well but during the stay I got into a fight with somebody and it upset my family, who I was hosting at the farm against the AirBNB rules but idk what they expected with a place that big
Anyways two weeks after I got back I rented a really nice hotel suite on the beach in south Florida and wound up having the night from hell. Huge physical alteration, police involvement, ran from the cops and got hurt badly. Probably the most beat up I’ve ever been
For a few days or a week even I felt more depressed than I since college and skipped the gym and just stayed at my house healing up ashamed I put my life at risk so stupidly
After two weeks I just decided I’ll start abusing stimulants, waking up at 5 am, pounding out work then leave and patrol the town for the afternoon hitting up the gym, sauna coffee shops
I figured what was the point of all that work if I never get to have any fun?
So that’s what I’ve been doing, weed and stimulants 24/7/365
When I came to PFA I never did this stuff I was sober nick pipes living like a choir boy
People change times change
Things are going up
I’m having a lot of fun
Anyways the sauna time is up going to shower up and do some calls then will see about better some games.
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Originally Posted by Cerveza Fria
