Life Update

[Neverheeb]

Today I scratched together $50 for a buyin at m8trix 1/2/3. I just got home after playing six or so hours.

I left pretty upset, but I am alright now. I should be pretty frustrated with my decision making, but I will put that aside for now.

I said a prayer before going in. I prayed to the Lord, "Please help me win $100 or $150." I put my heart into it and I really meant it. I believed God just might help me. Sure, God does not answer every prayer, but you just never know. I thought to myself, "I think the Lord will help me win this amount, but I must not get greedy, and must leave if/when I win the specified amount."

I got up over $500. I left with nothing and am going to go sit out on the porch and drink my tall can of bud light. I am just not sure I am going to bounce back. I hope I can, but it just is not guaranteed. It is back to the drawing boards for me. A big part of being a winning poker player is knowing when to get up and take your ass home. I failed to exit and now must pay the price for my greed. It sucks, but hopefully I learn to be smarter. I got to.

[SPIT this]

Today I scratched together $50 for a buyin at m8trix 1/2/3. I just got home after playing six or so hours.

I left pretty upset, but I am alright now. I should be pretty frustrated with my decision making, but I will put that aside for now.

I said a prayer before going in. I prayed to the Lord, "Please help me win $100 or $150." I put my heart into it and I really meant it. I believed God just might help me. Sure, God does not answer every prayer, but you just never know. I thought to myself, "I think the Lord will help me win this amount, but I must not get greedy, and must leave if/when I win the specified amount."

I got up over $500. I left with nothing and am going to go sit out on the porch and drink my tall can of bud light. I am just not sure I am going to bounce back. I hope I can, but it just is not guaranteed. It is back to the drawing boards for me. A big part of being a winning poker player is knowing when to get up and take your ass home. I failed to exit and now must pay the price for my greed. It sucks, but hopefully I learn to be smarter. I got to.

YOU COULD HAVE SAVED THE TIME OF WRITING ALL THAT AND JUST ASKED FOR A HANDOUT.

[MumblesBadly]

Today I scratched together $50 for a buyin at m8trix 1/2/3. I just got home after playing six or so hours.

I left pretty upset, but I am alright now. I should be pretty frustrated with my decision making, but I will put that aside for now.

I said a prayer before going in. I prayed to the Lord, "Please help me win $100 or $150." I put my heart into it and I really meant it. I believed God just might help me. Sure, God does not answer every prayer, but you just never know. I thought to myself, "I think the Lord will help me win this amount, but I must not get greedy, and must leave if/when I win the specified amount."

I got up over $500. I left with nothing and am going to go sit out on the porch and drink my tall can of bud light. I am just not sure I am going to bounce back. I hope I can, but it just is not guaranteed. It is back to the drawing boards for me. A big part of being a winning poker player is knowing when to get up and take your ass home. I failed to exit and now must pay the price for my greed. It sucks, but hopefully I learn to be smarter. I got to.

YOU COULD HAVE SAVED THE TIME OF WRITING ALL THAT AND JUST ASKED FOR A HANDOUT.

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[TheXFactor]

Now that my mood is stable, and I am able to think, I have done really well in poker. I started with $300 in gift money last Christmas and won $16,000 since then. Unfortunately I made a horrible mistake about two weeks ago. I took all the money I had won in the last six months to a baccarat table and lost it all. It was a horribly reckless choice, and to be quite honest, I do not know what on Earth I was thinking! I have to NEVER do that again. I am still quite content with my life, and am confident I will bounce back.

Baccarat is a terrible game.

You are almost guaranteed to lose your money playing that shit.

Learn to count cards and play blackjack instead.

Have you turned any more girlfriends into strippers or pornstars lately?

[Kuntmissioner]

Praying before you play?

You have a condition, and practicing avoidance is literally your only option.

Abstinence.

Stay in school.

[gauchojake]

The elevator only goes down. Where you get off is your decision.

Gambling does the same thing to your brain that alcohol and crack do.

You are going to die if you don't learn this.

Stop praying for yourself. Your sky daddy is not going to give you what you want only what you need. Apparently that is a swift kick in the ass.

The universe talks to you - it's up to you to listen. When you lost 16k (this time) you know what it said? STOP FUCKING GAMBLING.

Dan I am rooting for you, but you continue to need to learn the same painful lessons over and over again. At some point you run out of chances.

[Muck Ficon]

Today I scratched together $50 for a buyin at m8trix 1/2/3. I just got home after playing six or so hours.

I left pretty upset, but I am alright now. I should be pretty frustrated with my decision making, but I will put that aside for now.

I said a prayer before going in. I prayed to the Lord, "Please help me win $100 or $150." I put my heart into it and I really meant it. I believed God just might help me. Sure, God does not answer every prayer, but you just never know. I thought to myself, "I think the Lord will help me win this amount, but I must not get greedy, and must leave if/when I win the specified amount."

I got up over $500. I left with nothing and am going to go sit out on the porch and drink my tall can of bud light. I am just not sure I am going to bounce back. I hope I can, but it just is not guaranteed. It is back to the drawing boards for me. A big part of being a winning poker player is knowing when to get up and take your ass home. I failed to exit and now must pay the price for my greed. It sucks, but hopefully I learn to be smarter. I got to.

You are a complete mess. Check yourself back in to rehab ASAP.

[Crowe Diddly]

Praying to God to help you gamble might not be rock bottom, but it'll help you get there pretty quick.

If you are serious about your faith, you must realize that the God of the Bible has nothing good to say about gambling, and sure as fuck isn't deliver you from bad luck because you asked nicely.

Ask your God to help you stay away from temptation, not give in to it.

[duped_samaritan]

I failed to exit and now must pay the price for my greed.

You failed by entering.
At this point in your life, I really think you should stop playing poker. With your history of addiction, you're playing with fire every time you play poker or gamble in any way, online or live. The highs will make you too high, and the lows will hurt too much.

[garrett]

Hi all,
I thought I would check in with the community. The school year is coming to an end shortly, and I am looking forward to having a fun summer. I am not going to take any summer classes, but I did do well in school this year at the junior college. I took on a light load for starters because I wanted to set myself up for success, and I think I am making some good progress. I got an A+ in each of the four classes I took so far. I am signed up as an Economics major, and have been readmitted to UC Irvine. I am going to apply to SJSU, though, in the fall because I would rather remain in the area where I am near my family and support network.
Drugs and smoking have become a thing of the past and I trust myself; I have faith in God that He will guide me in the right direction, and will certainly harbor me from ever returning to the darkness. Also, I have been stable on two medications now for about two years - the diagnosis and treatment were truly an enormous blessing in my life as they restored me to sanity.
The medications treat a mood disorder among other symptoms. Starting early in my adult life, I developed symptoms of schizoaffective disorder. It not only became worse because of drug use, but also was a factor contributing to my drug use. Getting treated made putting drugs aside a clear and easy choice. I no longer lust for drugs, and so it is easy to stay away.
Now that my mood is stable, and I am able to think, I have done really well in poker. I started with $300 in gift money last Christmas and won $16,000 since then. Unfortunately I made a horrible mistake about two weeks ago. I took all the money I had won in the last six months to a baccarat table and lost it all. It was a horribly reckless choice, and to be quite honest, I do not know what on Earth I was thinking! I have to NEVER do that again. I am still quite content with my life, and am confident I will bounce back.
I am trying to get into some body weight exercises. I have been swimming a little bit, trying to lose weight because the medication I am on caused me to gain about forty pounds. It is very hard for me to keep my weight stable, and next to impossible to lose weight. I swam five miles last Thursday, and am hoping to build up to more soon.
I hope everyone in the community is doing well.

Cheers,
Dan

This is the degenerative tick that you have. The one which will never allow you to succeed long-term at anything gambling. I like your stories, I dont know you from your early day run ups just from what you wrote here. But I can tell you this, for someone who is now a convicted felon from addiction and gambling, admitting that he spun a $300 gift to $16,000 then lost it in baccarat is a Takei level LOL...

Having said that I wish you the best kid, and in my opinion instead of acting like your an all of a sudden Economics Major/savant, studying an advanced degree in college with god as your savior, while admitting you just lost a 16k roll on baccaratt lol, maybe take more solace in just being a pretty happy guy that you ENJOY the gamble, its ok to enjoy the risk one takes so long as your willing to accept the consequences. Be happy being you and stop trying to live life to make others happy, because eventually after our parents die, some friends left you the only one left is YOU. And if one isnt happy with who YOU are, then YOU arent going to make it through the difficult game of life. And fuck poker, life is a game, the game of life is a game of poker. If you win at that you've done well for yourself in my opinion, with or without a college degree, or acceptance from people you long attention (or stakes from). It all comes down to you Neverheeb the old days are gone, now its just a matter of whether you can accept your new normal. Learn to appreciate it and move on. Or your going to spin yourself in a circle trying to make all the people of yesteryear happy. In my opinion accept and love yourself, fuck most everyone else.

good luck kid wish you the best.