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#3 - is there a God and if so, is it one we have been introduced to?
My upbringing was Jewish, only in terms of reformed tradition. (ie lighting candles, exchanging gifts, Bar Mitzvahs, Seder.) Literally, only the things you "here about Jewish people doing." I went to a predominantly Catholic private school, inclusive of a school-wide daily chapel meeting (which claimed to be non-secular) however we read hymns from a hymnal, 98% of the time.
I believe that there is some higher power - I just don't know and don't care to dig too deep. I have a real issue with ambiguities - like space and time, so trying to rationalize what more there is or what the meaning of all this shit is, is not something I like to do. As a kid, I spent more than my share of sleepless nights wondering if this universe simply existed as a cell making up the smallest being in the next largest universe. Like I said, I can't deal with anything other than the tangible.
In recent years, I have started practice a shitload of yoga to reach a relaxed/meditative state. I have a bleak outlook on the world and worry that I may never be able to make peace with some things. Specifically,
I am often really bothered about something that seems banal to even bring it up...however, its that I can't find logic in the idea that that war/violence solve anything. I am fiercely opposed to and refuse to hear anything to the contrary. I mention it, because I realize that none of these things are going away. Death, is imminent and its really much healthier to find some sort of belief, change my attitude about the inevitable and deal with it.