....and so it goes.....A CONFESSION

[hutmaster]

Would you ever consider dating Jewdonk and assisting him break his nearly decade long streak of no sex? He’s quite the catch.

[Kilgore Trout]

A girl turns up and now everyone's going touchy-feely, and started using long words and structured sentences.

The actual fuck?





You must have glossed over entry #47.
I suggest you button up and take a gander.

[Kilgore Trout]

Would you ever consider dating Jewdonk and assisting him break his nearly decade long streak of no sex? He’s quite the catch.

You’re more my type. And that’s not saying too much.

[hutmaster]

Would you ever consider dating Jewdonk and assisting him break his nearly decade long streak of no sex? He’s quite the catch.

You’re more my type. And that’s not saying too much.

I’m assuming it’s only because I’m an actual Jew and I’m cut.

[Belly Buster]

A girl turns up and now everyone's going touchy-feely, and started using long words and structured sentences.

The actual fuck?





You must have glossed over entry #47.
I suggest you button up and take a gander.

I didn't mean you I meant everyone else.

[DonaldTrumpsHairPiece]

Look at me

[Kilgore Trout]

You have the best words. Your post was so well written. The thing I enjoy most consistently here is the clever way some of the guys write. It could be just a single word.

Compulsive, educated, possessed opportunity but was unfulfilled, bored or unhappy. Sought out poker/gambling as an escape and did that compulsively and exclusively too.

Prefers speed to depressants (alcohol).

Would you describe yourself as an introvert or extrovert. Are people necessarily in your recipe for happiness?

Rings familiar. I quit my gig and lived at Foxwoods for 8 mo.s in 2007. There was a day when I just had enough of that too. It takes a while for the desire for that kind of rush to pass. It creeps up from time to time.

I have been back to Foxwoods maybe 5 times in 10 years. I feel so detached from whatever the attraction once was. It just looks stupid to me now.

I lived 8 mo.s at a poker table yet I just returned from Vegas. I played some 4/8 limit for 4 hours and that was it. Just something to do. There was no missing romance.

Aside from the Adderral, the biggest challenge is finding the next big thing to get compulsive about. That's where the people thing comes. The good stuff comes from networking and random acquaintances - a frigging miracle this ever happened in my case.

Not contributing much but your post is irresistible.

I am an extrovert. A leader, never a follower. I also can be oppositional and defiant. That said, I really dig doing things solo. I enjoy other people - only to the extent that I can tolerate being around them, which recently, is not at all. I am (and always have been) fascinated by human behavior. I love people watching. Conversely, I hate being studied or critiqued. I really enjoy social situations that I can control. I cannot deal if things become too personal or I cannot control my environment. Does that make sense?

Re: getting compulsive about something else - you are right. It’s a matter of replacing a good/healthier behavior for the less than healthy habits I have acquired. I am a master throwing myself 100% into something I derive pleasure from.

[Baron Von Strucker]

I have herd that when you cut your hair it is the start when you change your life. Hopefully for the better. Having someone there to encourage you and listen can’t be bad unless they drag you down.
If you serously are done with poker and gambling self excluding will seal the deal for the most part course there are always workarounds if you are hopelessly addicted and can’t stop.
I about a month ago decided I was done with online poker as well and self excluded my self from the site I played on for good not going back. I will probably play live some time although I haven’t in more than a year.
No drug or booze problem thankfully, but I do work way more than I should and have a hard time relaxing when I am not unless I am exhausted.

Good luck KT stay healthy

[blake]

You’re more my type. And that’s not saying too much.

I’m assuming it’s only because I’m an actual Jew and I’m cut.

i'm assuming it's cause you're not homeless

[Tellafriend]

#3 - is there a God and if so, is it one we have been introduced to?

[WillieMcFML]

You’re more my type. And that’s not saying too much.

I’m assuming it’s only because I’m an actual Jew and I’m cut.

jews make up, what, like 4% of the us population

so how or why do they make up half the pfa user base?

[Tellafriend]

Not a query, just something to chew on:

[devidee]

I’m assuming it’s only because I’m an actual Jew and I’m cut.

jews make up, what, like 4% of the us population

so how or why do they make up half the pfa user base?

I have nothing even remotely anti-Semitic to add here.

[The_Lurker]

jews make up, what, like 4% of the us population

so how or why do they make up half the pfa user base?

I have nothing even remotely anti-Semitic to add here.

[Kilgore Trout]

#3 - is there a God and if so, is it one we have been introduced to?

My upbringing was Jewish, only in terms of reformed tradition. (ie lighting candles, exchanging gifts, Bar Mitzvahs, Seder.) Literally, only the things you "here about Jewish people doing." I went to a predominantly Catholic private school, inclusive of a school-wide daily chapel meeting (which claimed to be non-secular) however we read hymns from a hymnal, 98% of the time.

I believe that there is some higher power - I just don't know and don't care to dig too deep. I have a real issue with ambiguities - like space and time, so trying to rationalize what more there is or what the meaning of all this shit is, is not something I like to do. As a kid, I spent more than my share of sleepless nights wondering if this universe simply existed as a cell making up the smallest being in the next largest universe. Like I said, I can't deal with anything other than the tangible.

In recent years, I have started practice a shitload of yoga to reach a relaxed/meditative state. I have a bleak outlook on the world and worry that I may never be able to make peace with some things. Specifically, I am often really bothered about something that seems banal to even bring it up...however, its that I can't find logic in the idea that that war/violence solve anything. I am fiercely opposed to and refuse to hear anything to the contrary. I mention it, because I realize that none of these things are going away. Death, is imminent and its really much healthier to find some sort of belief, change my attitude about the inevitable and deal with it.

[Kilgore Trout]

jews make up, what, like 4% of the us population

so how or why do they make up half the pfa user base?

I have nothing even remotely anti-Semitic to add here.

lol, wow.

[DonaldTrumpsHairPiece]

Do you have children?

I cannot imagine that lifestyle and raising several kids.

[Kilgore Trout]

Do you have children?

I cannot imagine that lifestyle and raising several kids.

I do, as I have intimated. They are well cared for and more sheltered than not. I have made protecting them a priority.

Not that my substance abuse can really be justified, I can say that my ability to parent, has never been in question. I have never been impaired to the point that it was evident. My girls have never seen me so much as have a glass of wine. Thankfully, they have very limited knowledge of what poker/casinos are. They do know, that I "enjoy playing cards and make money doing it."

I was married for 9 years. My children's father was the best guy to date in my 20's, but a shitty husband and I knew it before we were married. There is no telling this to a 28 year woman intent on making babies. Since we split, 6 years ago, I have found renewed respect and admiration for him. As shitty of a husband as he was, is as wonderful of a father as he has become. I am lucky to have him backing me up.

[DonaldTrumpsHairPiece]

Do you have children?

I cannot imagine that lifestyle and raising several kids.

I do, as I have intimated. They are well cared for and more sheltered than not. I have made protecting them a priority.

Not that my substance abuse can really be justified, I can say that my ability to parent, has never been in question. I have never been impaired to the point that it was evident. My girls have never seen me so much as have a glass of wine. Thankfully, they have very limited knowledge of what poker/casinos are. They do know, that I "enjoy playing cards and make money doing it."

I was married for 9 years. My children's father was the best guy to date in my 20's, but a shitty husband and I knew it before we were married. There is no telling this to a 28 year woman intent on making babies. Since we split, 6 years ago, I have found renewed respect and admiration for him. As shitty of a husband as he was, is as wonderful of a father as he has become. I am lucky to have him backing me up.

Good to hear, "more sheltered than not." is a curious statement but I won't delve.

You seem like someone with a lot going on and a lot of competence, we all can use a little slow down. Don't let your hands become too idle around the bad choices. It is not easy to slow and avoid the triggers, stay busy in a slow way lol

[splitthis]

Just stay away from Drexel or you will end up Deeeeeeeed. Hopefully you can forget the fun ride and live a normal life, unfortunately taint easy. Good luck.