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Around this time I met christina, and she changed me probably more than anyone. I won't get into what happened with her too much, let's just say where I live girls are a dime a dozen and to them men are as well. Every girl I meet is always looking for the next best thing, and this being The Valley there are so many guys with so much money they have no reason to mess with a broke degen like me. Christina was different. She was funny, liked to talk about stupid shit and she and I had a great deal in common. I talked to her for hours and hours every single day for a long time, she moved and I thought something was there that just wasn't. WHen I was on my way home from south dakota, I snapped. SOmething in me just gave. I was sitting in my car at a rest stop in nebraska, and I just felt empty, unwhole like a part of me was missing. Like i was leaving myself behind. I cried half the way home, at times I would exit the freeway and just sit there feeling nothing but despair.