Originally Posted by
BCR
You just described a textbook panic attack. Fatigue, intense concentration, and then a shot of adrenaline fried your system temporarily. Did everything take on a surreal feel, through the looking glass point of view?
The last one I had was playing at Fallsview in Canada in 2007. I had played like 20 hours, wasn't feeling great, and was fueling my energy level with a bunch of coffee. Nothing bad happened, I just grew weary enough where I had to quit, and after a few steps away from the table it hit. I felt my entire body stiffen, got dizzy. I sat down for a few moments, and decided to try and get to my room. I was walking like Frankenstein because my legs were stiff, and my neck actually went numb also. Very strange, and I was embarrassed at the way I was walking even though no one was around besides the front desk girl.
I had anxiety attacks before, and had Xanax in my bag in my room, and even with that I didn't feel right for like 3 hours. The ones I had previously were more mild, and more shortness of breath/cold sweat type ones. That was the worst physical one where I could barely walk.
You probably just have something working on you and were tired. Were you drinking a lot of caffeine throughout the day?
I have known a handful of people that once they have their first continue to get them for awhile, but yours sounds more like an acute perfect storm situation.
I almost have to pop a xanax just reading some of the past 408 and China posts that talk of ingesting ripped fuel, and ECA stacks when dieting, because that stuff is the main culprit for most I knew that developed chronic panic attacks.
Better luck next year. You'll be ready to get back on that horse by then.
Maybe it was a panic attack. To me it seemed more like shock. And shock seemed more appropriate, given that I was kind of shocked that I was suddenly out after all of this time and effort. I wasn't really panicking because I knew there wasn't any kind of terrible consequence for being out. It just sucked big time, and there was intense disappointment and some anger at myself, as well.
The surreal feeling came at the peak of the symptoms. I couldn't stand, or even sit down without putting my head down. When I tried to look, my vision was blurry and I was very dizzy. My mind actually was 100% though, and I was trying to talk myself through it. I had no problem walking once the feeling passed after about 20 minutes. As I said, when the top of my head filled with sweat, I knew it was about to pass.
I didn't have much caffeine -- just one Pepsi many hours earlier. Caffeine never affects me negatively, anyway. I can sleep fine after ingesting a lot of it, and it does not make me jittery or anything else.
I think this was kind of a meltdown from the intense frustration of both the situation (27 hours of mostly well-played poker just to bust in a marginal situation and lose $10k) and the anger at myself for almost choosing the option that would have saved me, but going the other way.