Tyde I am really sorry to read this. You are one of my hero’s and an internet legend. You have created some of the best forum content I have ever seen and I have spent so much time reading forums it’s close to pathetic
I honestly think you need to stop worrying so much about the news, etc
During 2016 election cycle I became obsessed with the news, election, etc and was involved in trolling twitter similar as you seem to be doing now. I listened to podcasts at work. I would listen to Michael Savage and feel myself getting upset and legitimately angry. He is a great host and really can convey emotion to his audience. Anyways looking back now that I don’t read or watch the news ever basically it was a waste of time. Nothing I did or thought or said impacted anything.
I mainly was interested as at that point I had a boring desk job and a ton of free time. So I filled it with politics
I would suggest maybe you take the advice to get a social job, I thought it was good advice
I agree you’d crush it as a bartender, I think it would be a lot of fun, you have a ton of stories to tell and you’d get out of the house, connect and network
I don’t really think it’s a big deal that you drank for a few days or used drugs, you shouldn’t beat yourself up over it. Like you said you can easily walk away. I believe you can do that
I guess you’re not into going back to your job as the chef on a boat?
That seemed to be a great way for you to travel, be around people and have to keep drinking to minimum because your on a professional environment
I am a lonely soul just like you. At this stage of my life, I am frequently surrounded by others but always alone. I’ve never had more people rely on me but I’ve never felt more basically just not appreciated or valued
I have bouts of horrible depression or well I used to more but sometimes now I express it more as anger
Part of the reason I really like you is because how similar we are. Nicky Pipes isn’t or hasn’t always been strait laced. I was legit 100% straight laced lifestyle when I came here though
In the end you’re not going to have any fun worrying about worm holes and shit. Who cares? What’s it matter?
Maybe I wish I could have that disregard I just suggested for the things that bother me, easier said than done
If you ever feel alone or not value by the universe you can legitimately just think back on all the thousands of people who have loved your content on PFA for decades. It’s not a wise ass comment either, how many can say that?
A lot of the mindset and lifestyle tips I post on here I really do at least some of the time, my habits change constantly
Why not try the sauna? It’s fun and makes you feel great
The Tyde Lifestyle
7 am: wake up
730: arrive at beach for walk, you can smoke weed if you want at this point
9: start working on whatever your project is
2pm: go to local gym, 30 min either cardio or light weights followed by sauna
4 pm: back home, check in on project
6 pm: eat dinner
After this you can smoke weed, troll PFA etc
10 pm: go to bed
Repeat
Do this for a week or two you’ll be back on track